Monday, May 29, 2006

After a long time.. wonderful piece of writing

On the road of experience,
I'm trying to find my own way.
Sometimes I wish that I could fly away.
When I think that I'm moving,
suddenly things stand still.
I'm afraid cause I think they always will.
And I'm looking for space and to find out who I am,
and I'm looking to know and understand.
It's a sweet, sweet dream, sometimes I'm almost there.
Sometimes I fly like an eagle…
and sometimes I'm deep in despair.

All alone in the universe,
sometimes that's how it seems.
I get lost in the sadness and the screams.
Then I look in the center and suddenly everything's clear.
I find myself in the sunshine and my dreams
And I'm looking for space and to find out who I am,
and I'm looking to know and understand.
It's a sweet, sweet dream, sometimes I'm almost there.
Sometimes I fly like an eagle…
and sometimes I'm deep in despair.

On the road of experience, join in the living day.
If there's an answer it's just that it's just that way,
When you're looking for space and to find out who you are.
When you're looking to try and reach the stars.
It's a sweet, sweet dream, sometimes I'm almost there.
Sometimes I fly like an eagle…
and sometimes I'm deep in despair.

SAtyaban

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

Gone are those days!!

Going through the days or should I say running since morning till night all of a sudden I felt the greatest need to sit back & "do nothing" for 5mins atleast. But me being me & such a restless soul I decided to check "our blog" & see if some new posts have been added which I was not aware of. To my surprise I got Raj's posting & it added all the more value as he has left the city. Just thought of getting an over all view of the piece he has written as my "5 mins" were running out fast but once I started reading I couldnt help but continue with rapt attention checking out the master piece.I am not posting my piece in the comment part because I felt just a passing comment wont do justice where I saw so much reflection of my life too in his writing.

It reinforced my belief that mankind may be just divided into two broad halves "the sensible" & "the not so sensible ones" & I feel bad for the later category as they miss out on so much meaning of life & what it holds!!!

This blog we remember was created to keep in touch & I think all the members of this blog will agree when I say that in our short stint of association this is the most sensible action we took.

For an evening like this which I want to share with all of you & for "reasons known as well as unknown" I know I cant this blog has given me inner peace & has helped me restore my connectivity with all of you. All of you are so far but through this very medium I feel all you guys are near...may be I cannot hear your laughter or share a stupid joke but what the hell I can feel our shared moments in the bottom of my heart & will bask in its glory till we meet again...

Love,
Doyel.

Saturday, April 29, 2006

A long time gone

A long time gone since I posted my first writting on the bloge.............even these are not new some of you have read the poems .........some about to .........

As ur eyes scroll down u would encounter two rhythmic flow of words …….. Their quality as a poetry is under the realm of meaningful debate and I would welcome the same ………..but I would like to declare that all of them are drawn from true experiences of my life …..the pain , the euphoria, the struggle , the gloominess are all real . ……..


“Her Eyes” is about a girl whom I know ..she was going through a low in her life ……..I met her at a coffee bar , a few days back…..since then her eyes have been haunting me……..this poem is dedicated to those eyes which in their apparent silence narrated a life in atrophy …………

“Her Eyes”

I looked into her eyes
My sight piercing them in search of the untold
Have you ever tasted tears
It’s like swallowing your pain
I turned away and looked again
Behind the great torment of an abortive life
Were a thousand roses in bloom.

Behind her eyes, behind her eyes
So deep so lonely inside
Was a lady unknown
Was a speech without words
Resplendence of love in the darkest of the dark
Behind her eyes, behind her eyes
She was sitting in the middle of the night
Groping her corpse in search of life.

the next “Being Myself” is about my walking the talk……. I often keep on saying “be yourself”…….this poetry is about my journey of being myself…………and through the journey I realized that being myself in all the situations of life is probably the most difficult thing to be……….to have the courage and honesty to be ourselves under any situation is difficult, very difficult, but through my own experience I can tell you , true freedom can only be experienced when you are yourself…….the liberation , the freedom , the happiness that you get by being yourself is far far greater than any material gain which you could have earned by being the other way……….believe me all of us are “only happy “ when we are ourselves……….we seek company of people with whom we can be ourselves and when we don’t get them by our side we are feel desolated even in a crowed of “so called friends’………I have been through the whole experience myself and I know the pain behind that false smile we try hard to keep when we fail to be ourselves but are constantly trying hard to believe that we are happy the way we are………I dedicate this poem of mine to all the people with whom I can be myself …………..infact I have come to believe that only those relations stand the test of time in which both the persons have “ come as they are”

“Being Myself”

I kissed all my renegades and walked on
I traveled through the darkness of my soul,
in search of the star hidden for a thousand night behind the clouds

I smouldered through my pain,
I sailed passed the mayhem of my mind,
I fought every night with my daily lies

I died a thousand deaths before I lived again
I traveled passed my strident cries for self appeasement
into the eternity of my inner serene

I traveled through miles and miles of solitude
in search of myself
I tore apart the façade I lived for years
I came out of my million years of atrophy
In course of my journey, my journey
of being myself.


Regards
Raja

Friday, April 28, 2006

Jatin-Lalit Part 2

Very Much "Oni Beautiful BAsu" go ahd with JALA-P2, lets research before seeing "Fanaa"

nitins

Awaiting Jatin Lalit part 2

Ani, dunno abt the rest but Nitin and I are eagerly waiting for the part 2. And btw, after every msg, there is an option for comments, where I had added a comment (in case you are wondering why no body has commented on your Jatin Lalit Saga).

Love Mads

Thursday, April 20, 2006

A reason to Celebrate – Fanaah – Calling all Jatin Lalit Fans The last music together - Part I

The journey and the duo

Born in the traditional Mewati Gharana, sons of the renowned classical singer Pandit Pratap Narayan, and nephews of musical Maestro Pandit Jasraj, Jatin-Lalit are indeed blessed with an envious pedigree. And the film industry is mighty pleased about the fact that the duo chose the field of film music to display their abundant talent besides the aforementioned pedigree. There are only few music director/duo who has been as successful in the recent times, as the youthful brothers, whose niche is melody and harmony packaged in the modern musical arrangement style. This, perhaps, stems from the fact that besides the traditional Hindustani formal music training (from their father and Pandit Ramprasadji),they were also encouraged to learn and play western musical instruments. Singing was also a childhood passion, a talent which they (albeit rarely) have utilised with great aplomb in films like "Jo Jeeta Wohi Sikandar," etc. They have been nominated and have won several prestigious awards each year since they started their career in 1990. Out of the innumerable examples are films like "Jo Jeeta Wohi Sikandar," "Khiladi," "Dilwale Dulhaniya Le Jayenge," "Khamoshi," "Yes Boss" "Kuch Kuch Hota Hai., Hum Tum a list which will never end. Jatin-Lalit’s most powerful assets remain their originality and fusion of east and west in their music, factors omnipresent in each of their musical scores. As they themselves modestly claim, "We are forever on a learning curve. Hopefully, our best is yet to come." For the sake of the Hindi film music, this should remain the sign of the times to come.

The journey started with a movie named “Dil hi Dil mein” which was a B/W movie starring Navin Nischol, Sarika, Sulakshana Pandit, Dr. Shreeram Lagoo, Vinod Mehra. Again it came and went off like a blink . My first experience of jatin lalit was courtesy “ Anand Milind” another well known Music Director at that age and of course the singer – “Abhijeet” The cassette was a Salman Khan Starrer “Baghi” remember ? Nagma was introduced in Hindi films thru this. They used to give sample music of the upcoming releases thru these cassettes and it was for the first time I heard “Bin Tere Sanam” . the year was 1991 and another great Music Composer Duo of our times have already started climbing their peak – Yes I am speaking about Nadeem Khan – Shravan Kumar Rathod
This was the year when they had one of their major hits of life time- “SAAJAN”
“Yaara Dildara” was a non starter at that point of time. Their fame to Glory came in the year 1992 and what a year that was . The entire country remembered their “Wadah raha Sanam – Khilari” got into “ Laveria – Raju Ban Gaya Jentleman” and got addicted to nonetheless “ Pehla Nasah- Jo Jeeta Wohi Sikander” . Easily humable songs soothing music and somewhere making you dream has been the key features of the music. Initially after the release of Jo Jeeta Wohi Sikander they were labeled as a true copy of “Anand –Milind” . But by the end of 1992 it was clear that new force has come who will reign the
Mumbai film Industry in the years to come

Part – II – The evolution of the Music pattern and the years of Glory

As all of us have grown up thru this Music will like to have all the feedbacks and value additions also please let me know whether you will like to know more!!!!!

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

Back with a vigour!!

I didnt see Dosur so wont be able to share the platform with the speakers...but yes I can after so many days take the liberty to express whatever comes to this mind after a back breaking hard day at work...

From Oni we read the beautiful piece on Kalbaisakhi...to be honest my mind got flooded with memories of the same...it means my wet verandha back home in Silchar where I see myself & my younger sister running to & fro & trying to get wet as far as possible...writing our names on the wet ground...trying our best to close as many doors & windows as possible (as if the winner would get a gold medal)...school getting closed declaraing "rainy days".... the power cuts in the night with lighting & thunder giving an impression of a horror movie...studying or pretending to do so in the candle light...the time also meant Baba coming home early than usual...with time & age the season meant listening to sounds of rain & appreciation of love songs.....that was near about 10yrs back & now it means how to brave the rains & get on with the day...but given a choice still I can see that girl in two ponytails excited by the nature's play running around trying to make the best of the rains...

May be someday...may be

Doyel

Reply to Anindya

Dear Anindya,

Must confess your reply to my views were like "Tomahawk cruises" aimed at "Baghdad with Scuds". It had many thought provoking views. Let me try to answer certain questions that you have raised for me-


“Art and culture apart from providing entertainment to people has always carried a great responsibility to act as a reflection of the society, to capture the best and the worst socio economic activities to act as a documental evidence for the generations to come”

Reflection means a mirror image, then why a dichotomy in projection? Treachery, infidelity is as much a reality of our everyday life as is frustration arising out of varied causes. Why don’t we try to understand them ? “Compromise” used in its literal term is perhaps the greatest threat to long term happiness.


“It has projected the basic physiological needs of humans in a wrong way”

Sex is a beautiful gift and it gives rise to an energy called “ojas”, which is necessary to be experienced. My differing point is : Why did the director use it as a filler to close vacuum created elsewhere? Don’t you think that when you are approaching sex guided by this concept, you are defining it narrowly? Moreover the experience is short-lived and memories may turn bitter and painful.

“Lastly will like to know what is your answer /take on the fact that if tomorrow you had found your wife in such a situation and her partner had died in an accident”

Honestly, I have not been able to answer that.


Nitin

Monday, April 17, 2006

Dosar - Nitin and the hollowness

Dear Nitin,

Thanks for such a wonderful view about the movie and giving us some to points to ponder and think about. Your personal opinion and views are really appreciable and respected. Will request you not to take this mail in a personal way but again as my views on the film. Shall love to listen from you more once you are thru with the same.

Art and culture apart from providing entertainment to people has always carried a great responsibility to act as a reflection of the society, to capture the best and the worst socio economic activities to act as a documental evidence for the generations to come. Today how our generation has come to know about “ Bidhaba Bibaha” , “Sati Daha”, “ The tortures of British on us” . Yes there have been historians who have captured that but again the intellectual segment of the society – namely the poets, the writers, singers never stayed back they also came up in their own capacity to raise their voices against all the current socio political vices and raise an awareness.

Yes I do agree that all of us can never become “Buddha” neither all of us would try to do that . But I could not understand the statement “It has projected the basic physiological needs of humans in a wrong way” Don’t you think that the very basic fact it makes you feel that it has projected a wrong thing – serves the purpose of the film as it makes you realize what is right and wrong ?? The film acts s a documentation of our present lives and the shallowness of our lives as rightly you said life is not about “staying in Kolkata, marrying, purchasing a luxurious apartment, a car, keeping a 24 hour help at home to take care of ageing parents and children, while slogging at office without any vision and partying hard during weekends” But I believe life is all about enjoying all this and still discussing about a movie for the whole night and reinvent our past in an absolute new light . Today all of us are running after money or else we would not have checked the package offered in any new assignment and neither would have tried to negotiate it. Why do we do that to earn and gain comforts of life. The essence of life remains in the fact that inspite of all this if you can relate yourself with the bigger world .
I am really not that well read that I will be able to match up your examples from the various texts that you have referred but you have raised two questions which I will try to answer . Yes he has not answered what type of a relationship Prasenjit and Mita had because the purpose of the film was not that at all .The purpose of the film was to capture what people undergo under these circumstances and what is the role of an ideal companion . Have you ever tried to think that what you would have gone thru if you had been “Mitas’ husband ? How helpless one feels when he comes to know about the wife and cannot shout at her . I repeat the purpose of the film was to capture the introspection after a storm. Kankona Sensharma as per you has been very rude and indifferent. What else would you expect from a wife when she comes to know that her husband is involved in an incident like this where you are not sure about the depth of the relationship, but if you have noticed very carefully she has never missed a chance to serve her duty towards her husband. This proves the greatness of our generation where we raise ourselves to a state that in spite of everything relationship and belongingness to that relationship comes first.

Speaking about relationships it’s actually a vaccum /monotony that grows in a marriage that makes us look for options outside. Again the purpose of the film was not to analyse why the vaccum but what if the vaccum

Will like to know what do you mean by this - “where a man is shown having copulation with a woman in a supposedly artistic way, which to me is nothing more than two animals playing the mating game.” But as per me which most of us will agree this “mating game “ is one of the key ingredients to cement a relationship and to feel its completeness . “Its very easy to connect with one person intellectually but to have the completeness of the relationship we need to connect thru body also . It’s the way two bodies speak the language and communicate------ as per Mads.

Lastly will like to know what is your answer /take on the fact that if tomorrow you had found your wife in such a situation and her partner had died in an accident

Thanks – Anindya

Reply to Nitin's Review

Eta Ke Re.... Samne aa Bachoo, gumnan kyo hai tu??

Nitin

Nitin's review

Pls see the movie again, that might just help you

Views on "Dosar- The Companion"

“The gull sees farthest who flies highest” – Jonathan Livingston Seagull

Similarly for me the greatness of a race lies in the quality of thoughts among its multitude. The thought process that was set in motion after watching the movie hardly holds any promise for brilliant actions by the Bengali race. The narrowness of the subject and plot defines the range of thinking that we are capable of. It is also a precedent for the kind of films that would be following. In short “Dosar” has failed to create any impression upon my mind, it was yet another visual depiction of private lives of the so-called elite class. Infidelity, polygamy, alcoholism, sexuality and pseudo-political activism seems to have become the mainstay of most of the plots for Bengali parallel cinema.

Thinking and Language are two beautiful gifts to the human beings which supposedly differentiates us from animals. They have been used by us to understand nature and its elements. The idea of using knowledge for attaining the absolute self is something which we know as the ocean of pure bliss or “Samadhihasta Avasta”. These have been the fascinating discoveries of India by traveling on the road of thousand years of civilization, the understanding of the true nature of human form and thus its purpose. Treachery, sexual arousals, immorality and obsessiveness with the concept of mating shows the animal instincts within us which is largely driven by Tamas, these tendencies leads a man and woman to seek fleeting pleasures, that goes on and on in a vicious circle, until the final destruction comes by being reduced to dust to be blown across by wind. Bengali movies are more and more making it a point to go on purposelessly discussing about these topics and wasting the beautiful resource that we as a race are endowed with : imagination.

People have always tried to indulge into worldly pleasures, presently they are doing and in future would continue doing that, but that does not discounts the reality, that our true nature does not lies in meandering through these endless jungles of virtual reality which does not have any permanence. Getting obsessed by these thoughts and projecting them as something worth of thinking by putting on them a garb of literary jargons and ideas seem to be the most in-vogue cultural activity of present time, which I dislike. The culmination of our civilization was reached when the Upanishads were written, Srimadbhagawad Gita is an Upanishad and it has a line-


“ Jitatmanah Prasantasya Parmatma Samahita
Sitausnasukhaduhkheshu tatha manaapamanayoh”

It means:

“To one who has control over the aggregate of body and organs and who is serene in the presence of cold and heat, happiness and sorrow, as also honour and dishonour, the Supreme Self becomes the content of Samadhi”

The film in no way passes anywhere near the boundary of this thought while explaining pleasure and pain. It has projected the basic physiological needs of humans in a wrong way. To become a human being is a gift whose worth must be realized, it is not only about eating, sleeping, earning and propagating, there has to be a search for the exalted one within ourself, the Buddha, otherwise we would also remain one among the millions forgotten by time. We must realize that –
“Om is the bow, the arrow is soul, The Brahman is the arrow’s target, That one should incessantly hit”
The director was so preoccupied with a different theme, that he missed a beautiful chance to explore a relationship that had no name. The relationship that was between Prosenjit and “Mita”. Rene Descartes has written : “The actors, called to the scene, in order to hide their flaming cheeks, don a mask. Like them, when climbing on stage in the theater of the world, where thus far, I have only been a spectator, I advance masked”. Prosenjit and “Mita” had donned a mask just as Rene did, while going through his search for unknown. A relationship with no name can be compared with something of the great human adventure that had brought Ulysses from Troy, that had been part of Don Quixote’s experience, that had led Dante and Orpheus into hell, and that had led Columbus to the Americas: the adventure of traveling toward the unknown. Prosenjit and “Mita” were traveling toward each other arriving at a point which none of them knew about, but, obscurity of the point was a flame which was attracting them like an insect, either to get destroyed or glow in its glory. The key was to discover that point, “Dosar” did not tried at all to enter that area, thus revealing the prosaicness of thoughts.

I have had the chance of staying close to two women and observing the difference in each one of them. Both of them were equally attractive to me because of their uniqueness which were very personal to each one of them. With one of them I had a very close relationship and it was very hard when she went away from my life. Our relationship and attraction towards each other was more than mere sexual arousals, she has got her life partner now and I have moved on in my life, but that did not deterred her from saying that the relationship between me and her was one without any name and would always have a special place in her mind. My point is, there is absolutely no reason or necessity to project such kind of relationships in a wrong way, interpreting them in an incorrect manner and forcefully putting a beautiful idea into a preconceived cast.

“One wants to lose the individual in the universal, one renounces, flies-off, and tries to cut himself off from all associations of the body of the past, one works hard to forget even that he is a man; yet, in the heart of his heart, there is a soft sound, one string vibrating, one whisper, which tells him, East or West, home is best”

-Swami Vivekananda’s reply to the official reception, on his return from USA, at the residence of the Late Raja Radha Kanta Deb Bahadur at Sovabazar, Kolkata.

I somehow find a relationship in these words of the Swami, and can draw a simile with the love that one had with a woman at any point of time. I have felt this personally, times have changed, I have moved on, tried to forget, met so many different people, many more would come to join me and again leave, but the memory of all those special persons have remained and in my solitude I find the moments spent with them as priceless treasures which brings to me solace when everything around me lies shattered. Were not Prosenjit and “Mita” trying to create the same kind of moments?

So, my friends, why such shortsightedness, while making a cinema on human relationship? It speaks of the decay and the rust that is there in the mind. There are hardly any Bengali movie which has the plot of the middle class family, their aspirations and lifestyle in the increasingly globalised Indian Economy, neither there is any movie which speaks about removing poverty from grassroots or which speaks about the merits of democracy and national politics in bringing about change. These themes, I think, are not in-vogue for our intellectual class, who will smoke cigarettes, drink alcohol and talk in excited tones about bringing change or exploring sexual relationships by giving a literary touch to it, but when it comes to getting down to action and sacrifice, will simply shirk away by saying : “too early to get down to action”. They cannot dream of a world outside Kolkata, for them the world starts with the corporate life, meanders through the glitzy lights of Park Street, lazes by the banks of Hooghly and ends up by spending nights awake discussing topics which are junk. For them dreaming about national glory through collective action of changing the educational pattern, the primary health situation, or about dreaming of science and technology which would help us to understand the mystery that is nature is something unimaginable. Is life all about staying in Kolkata, marrying, purchasing a luxurious apartment, a car, keeping a 24 hour help at home to take care of ageing parents and children, while slogging at office without any vision and partying hard during weekends?

It is this society which I despise of and it is for these people films like “Dosar” would appeal, where a man is shown having copulation with a woman in a supposedly artistic way, which to me is nothing more than two animals playing the mating game.

“Dosar” missed on two questions that I was thinking about-

(a)Why did Prosenjit and “Mita” develop such closeness for each other? I do not think it was only for “Ushnotar Jonyo”

(b) What kind of a person would the child of “Mita” grow up to become?

Coming to the technical aspects of the movie, I felt that it was only Prosenjit’s acting that looked natural to me. Konkona was rude and straightforward to such an extent that it was looking quite unnatural, while Pallavi (who went on showing her cleavage and sobbing), Paramabrata, Tota were unnecessary add-ons. All of them apart from Prosenjit simply had a mask on.

Therefore, the movie had nothing, which merits it to be called as great. It also does not speaks highly of a director, who has earlier explored a beautiful relationship between cousins, when he made “Utsav”
Nitin Mazumdar